If you make the correct decisions, you can sit back, relax, and really enjoy the rest of your life. Most people have never had the experience of winning the lottery and probably never will. Millions refuse to buy a lottery ticket, and their chances of winning, of course, are nil. Millions of others buy tickets every week or on a less frequent basis, and their chances of winning are almost nil. Yet, we refuse to let the dream go, the dream of one day getting everything we ever wanted.

Growing up my father bought the lotto everyday in the hopes of providing everything for his children and getting the chance to fulfill his every dream. As a child my imagination would run wild conceiving all the possible toys and “stuff” I could have, whereas now, the idea of winning the jackpot leads to thoughts of college loans, a house, security.

Nevertheless, although the way we spend the money may change, the thrill and rush of winning the lottery is as vivid as in our childhood and as genuine as a parent wanting what’s best for their children.

This concept is too real for me at the moment…

For years I’ve always considered myself as someone who can handle anything and do it gracefully. However, this school year has me doubting myself. I knew ahead of time that my schedule would be crazy and intense but I thought just like in the past that I was more than OK to handle what was put infront me.

This is my second year as a FACS teacher, but my first year being a freshman advisor and co-advisor for student government. I also created three new courses and am constantly doing work for these new classes. I coach soccer for a travel team weekly and have a engagement party and wedding to  plan for. Nevertheless, two graduate classes that I am taking. I’ve always been a good student but I’m telling you, this statistics class will be the end of me!! It makes me feel as if I sinking and there is no point in return. Just when I think that YES I can handle this all I sit in my statistics class Thursday nights and it all sinks in. As I become lost in each slide that the professor presents, all my other committments creep into my head. I should have done this! OR, I need to do this! and Boy, am I tired!!

And any free second that I get I want to spend sleeping! Its hard to balance everything and still manage to keep your social life or love life afloat. I’m trying and thats all I guess I can give myself credit for. I may falter every now and then but I keep pushing through.

All I need to think is that by this summer this will all be over and I will have graduated from Queens and that all these struggles I have dealt with this year will become less and less next year.

Is it June yet??